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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 16.06.2025 12:25

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

How long would you let a homeless friend stay at your house?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

When she asked me how she looked .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

They are buried together, in the same grave..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Why aren't U.S. prisons more like Marine Corps boot camp, were every second of the day there are mandatory activities so that at night everyone is so tired they go to sleep until wakeup at 5:30 am? Would this make prisons safer for all?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I think the readers, may guess!

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

What would happen if the Soviet Union had simply annexed Manchuria after World War 2 or kept it independent as a puppet state allied them and separate from China as China was too weak too oppose it anyway?

He resisted the act ,that day.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was very sick at this time too.

What is the experience of wearing a school uniform every day? Do people typically get used to it or dislike it?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

What does it mean if someone asks if it’s pink?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Why do women consider 80% of men as unattractive?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Why am I tired all the time?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She wouldn,t have been !

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She found it foreign!.

I was seconnd youngest,

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I will be 64.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I waited trembling.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

What did i know ?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But ive been too sick for many years..

But it wasn’t much.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

But, we were locked up after school.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I never cut or harmed myself..

Who then, do I blame.?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Comes on , in middle age.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My family never makes their pension either.

Put me off passion for life!!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He knew the spot.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Would this be the day?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

So whats the point in blame.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She loved him until the end.

We were not on the streets..

Especially a lifetime of it.

And i lived it daily.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I was 9 years of age.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

All the time i was locked up.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I couldn’t, believe it.

She married twice! .

So, i spoilt her more .

I have no regrets .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I said to her

Im still living with it.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I don,t even have a pension.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Ive learnt so much.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Was to survive, this bastard.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She was in good health!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We all went to grammer schools

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was scared of men, in general

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As i do to all so called friends.?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

This is soul school!.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I could never make a relationship work though!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

It was going to be , some day.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I write beautiful poetry .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My life is so biszare .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

One cannot live in the past .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

(And it was in our own minds.)

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.